He is so faithful

God is faithful. He is so faithful. He is good. He is big. His is sovereign. He is constant. He delivers me. He is a cliff cleft for me. I love Him. 

My last post was like my final call for help, I was so discouraged and lost. Utterly broken and although I was still calling on God I was just so helpless and ready to give up internally. I was able to talk to my discipler that night and she was able to encourage me in ways I could never have seen. The frustration I felt was the devil working so hard to combat my perseverance and work the Lord was doing through us. I could not overcome him on my own,  but I was able to just surrender it all completely to God and let him fight for me. In Him I find my joy, love, strength, and boldness. I was trying so hard to love these people who made me angry on my own and couldn't. And if anyone knows me when I am angry I can't even talk to people. I can only be angry and wallow in it. It's ugly. But God was amazing. I realized just how much bigger he is than our anger, fears, and frustrations. I was putting him in a box and then sat on the box myself!
So the next day I woke up and took a look at what was the next verse in Romans I was studying and applying. Romans 12:14 says "Bless those who persecute you, bless and do not curse them." I had been cursing them inwardly and being hostile. I was not clothed in Christ and even rejected his help. It struck me that morning that God was listening and guiding me, but I hadn't been letting him lead me. The three students from project that work with me prayed very intentionally that morning for God to work through us and, through the Spirit I was able to share the Gospel, which I hadn't done at work yet, before 9 am! It was so awesome! Where there was hardheartedness, rejection, and fear before was replaced with open hearts and the Spirit at work. It was such an encouragement for the rest of the week and God has been an endless presence since then! I just want to shout it from the rooftops how faithful he is! He tells us he is faithful and he provides, yet we are still so hesitant to fully trust in him and surrender control to him. Let God know your heart and your fears and he will show you how much he cares about you! I still can't fathom how he loves me but I just try to press the "I believe" button and know I cannot understand his love entirely. Praise God for his faithfulness!!!!!!


As project winds down we are trying so hard to remain in the present and not worrying about the future. There are still 3 weeks left. God created the Earth and the heavens in 7 days! Imagine what he can do with 21 days if we give that up to him!


Please be in prayer for these things specifically:
-Complete dependence on the Spirit for love, joy, and endurance
-soften the hearts of our coworkers to hearing the Gospel, divine opportunities and the boldness to seize them
-vulnerability as we deepen relationships on project and find people who can point us to Christ in all things
-project outreaches on Saturday: the people we will talk to and what we will say
-Manager's outreach: it is specifically for our managers so we can show them our appreciation and point them to Christ. 
-Follow up with our contacts from CRU meetings


Thank you so much for all your prayers and support, they are helping! I can't wait to see how God continues to work this summer!


From McD's...someone asked me for a McCoffee (they meant a chocolate chip frappe) and a McOreo ( meaning an Oreo McFlurry), we told them 'Here is your McOreo' and they laughed :)